Not for me. Somewhere along the line, I grew pretty concerned
Fast forward to just a few years ago. Now, I
But, let me tell you...I was still
Fast forward a few more years and now I am a chick
I’ll give you time to recover from that one.
I mean it. I'm just not cool,
I wear normal undergarments that never match each other. I have one earring hole in each ear, at the normal part of the lobe, and normal sized. No quarter-sized, floppy holes here. (Sidenote: how in the world do they think that is going to look in another twenty years??
I can't name any artist on the top 40 list lately. In fact, I don't even know for sure if they still do a top 40 list.
I can't pull off the cool new trendy bow/flower/feather phenomenon that is sweeping girl's hairdos and hats and lapels across the nation. Shoot - I just found out what "jeggings" were like two months ago. By the way – jeggings: leggings that are jean material. That’s for the rest of you kids out there that are repeating the word over and over in your head like I did, as if you should know it.
Or maybe not? It doesn't matter either way to me, to be honest. I am what I am. But, I'm telling you what, friend...not too long ago, I would have been wearing jeggings...while driving in my late model SUV...listening to p.diddy or fergie or that chick with the weird costumes...um...lady gaga. See? I can hardly even make the reference to sound funny!...but man, I'd have been blaring that music with the windows down, wind whipping through my highlighted hair tucked under my blingy hat with coordinating bow attachment...as I hurried from getting my teeth cleaned to my mani/pedi appointment...all before my roast was done in the crockpot at home.
Not now. Not me.
But, that's just it...none of that is bad. Some of the people I love dearest
But, we all have something...don't we? I mean, I used to
We all have that "thing" that we do truly wish was different about us...or our home...or our lives. For some of us
For me, over the past year or two, my “if-only” has been a little ironic, really. I do believe that God is laughing
What is my "if-only"??
SHHHHHHHH!! Yep, that was the sound of my last chance at being cool flushing down the toilet.
Ironic, isn't it? The one thing I knew I would never do was own a
That's right. For me...this has been my deal. Crazy, isn't it?? I mean, it is not like I wanted liposuction or a vacation home in Italy. (Don’t judge, these are just examples!)
I wanted a stinkin’ minivan. Period.
Not too outlandish is it?
And, it didn’t even have to be new. Used was fine, I just wanted a third row for our three small kiddos to sit on so that I didn’t
Silver colored cars
Oooh… and leather would be a huge bonus for the inevitable spills and daily bodily fluids that come along with motherhood.
And one of those fancy automatic doors would be like icing on the cake.
But, really. Just a third row in a used vehicle with good gas mileage was fine with me.
It was fine.
Then, it was
Then, it became
And, then it sort of became a little ultimatum in my head to
My thoughts about it went something like this
Lord, could you please just DO THIS for us? I mean really, we have had quite a difficult couple of years. We deserve this. You know this would make our world so much easier. We have faithfully given to our church and our dear missionary friends throughout all of these trying times. We do not live lavishly. We don’t even live “normally”. We don’t have debt. We have paid off more than enough medical bills over these last few years to pay cash for a luxury SUV for each of us. Are we really asking for that much? What is the problem here? Every single time we even begin to save up a bit of money – something happens – and there that dream goes, further and further away. Why can’t you allow us to have this one thing. “If only” we could just get this minivan – then, Lord, then we’d be satisfied.
Ugh. Disgusting, isn’t it?
My prayers didn’t start off that bitter.
Meanwhile, I kid you not, lots of people
Even some of my friends got minivans. Two of them hated having a minivan – and they
Ya sure. Ever heard the expression “salt in the wound”. Yep, I was feeling wounded, sitting there holding my empty salt shaker, for sure!
Am I babbling endlessly here or can you actually relate to this?
So, maybe you are a cool kid
A bigger house?
A bigger income?
A smaller waistline?
Something that so-and-so has that you don’t.
Maybe just an attitude or personality trait change for you? Or maybe your spouse?
Yes, Lord, then we’d be satisfied.
Friend, have you ever heard of the Israelites?
Take some time and read Exodus Chapters 13-16.
The Israelites sounded a little something like
“If only we had freedom…”
“If only we had a leader…”
“If only we could cross this sea…”
“If only we had water to drink…”
“If only we had meat to eat…”
“If only we had a different leader…”
“If only we had never left slavery…”
“If only we weren’t lost…”
“If only those giants weren’t so big…”
“If only we had a minivan…”
Ok, so I added that last one. But, good gosh, I would have fit in there quite nicely. Sad, but true. Would you fit in with me? I want you to really stop and think about that. Think about your “if onlys” and see where you heart is about them.
Being that I’ve had a lot of “down time” over these last months and months,
Satan will take your innocent desire and turn it into an sinful “if only” quicker that you can push the button to open your automatic sliding minivan doors.
You see, this had become satan’s minivan. That
I let go. I gave up. I flat out told God that if we had to drive the eleven-year-old 4Runner and the twenty-year-old Celica for years and years, I’d just be fine with it. I had to choose to be fine with it. I had to give it up and just trust Him.
I think it is interesting
Anyway, friend, I am beyond excited,
I mean it – I wouldn’t lie about something that serious. :)
And in true God fashion – He totally outdid Himself.
To make a long story as short as I am physically capable
I now own God’s minivan. And its name is “Grace”.
We could have rushed through it. We could have gone against our personal convictions and just accrued some debt to make this happen. We could have. But by the grace of God alone, we didn’t. And I am so happy, because now, on this side of it, I know we would have missed His blessings.
First of all, we would have missed out on an amazing opportunity to own a van that we bought from some of our dear friends. Grace has been my sweet friend for years and years. She held my hand during these last few years and helped remind me of the foundation I was, in fact, standing upon. She and Tom have been in our home group for a while. They are salt of the earth kind of people.
And they were moving to Austria. (insert weeping) I have
And by the way, in true God form – my van, “Grace”, is silver, has two, that’s right, two automatic sliding doors, leather and has been driven, immaculately cared for, and even prayed over by one of my dearest friends.
Does it get any better than that?
Well, I guess free would have been better. But, not really. After all the fussing we’d
But, before you get to thinkin’ I’m sounding pretty proud of myself about this – be assured that I am
Remember, I’m not a cool kid.
And don’t get me started on my waistline.
Friend, would you please give it up? Are you willing to just let. this. thing. go? Pray about it often. Search Scripture to help you with contentment and joy. Look around at all the blessings you do have and soak in the thankful bath tub for a while.It's great for the skin.
Our gracious God wants to take care of us in every way. He knows what we need and He knows what we want
Don’t miss out on the blessings He is anxiously awaiting to give you.
If you do, you may not fully take ownership of the “Grace” He has in store for you.
Psalm 37:30-34 “The mouth of the righteous man utters wisdom, and his tongue speaks what is just. The law of his God is in his heart; his feet do not slip. The wicked lie in wait for the righteous, seeking their very lives; but the LORD will not leave them in their power or let them be condemned when brought to trial. Wait for the LORD and keep his way. He will exalt you to inherit the land; when the wicked are cut off, you will see it.